Live Everyday Like It's Your Last

Even though there hasn’t been any hints or anything, I can’t stop thinking about marrying Tyler. I love him so much and the thought of me finding that one special person just makes me all Giddy. I hate gloomy days like this, where you’re lazy all day and have nothing to do. Can’t wait for him to get home…hopefully he’s in a good mood.

Out of all the things the car accident has taken away from me there is only one thing that has made me self conscious. Every where they had to operate on, they had to shave. This including my neck, chest, stomach, and hands. I still grow unwanted hair in these areas. Makes me feel like people are staring at that more then they are at my scars. Just a little F.Y.I…. It makes me feel worse when you just stare rather then just growing some balls and asking what happened.

Sometimes I wish I could please everyone with the snap of my fingers. Side note…been thinking a lot about marriage and having children. I just think it’s coming to that time in my life when I know I’m ready to settle down with the man I love. Although, it could be going perfectly amazing today and tragically wrong tomorrow. You never know what the future holds.

To you it might be just a date symbolizing how many years we’ve been together. But to me, it means so much more. It breaks my heart knowing you have no desire to celebrate it with me. I live every day to please you and your family and would just like one day out of the year for you to show that you’re some what thankful. I give up on the perfect relationshit that every girl dreams of.

Being surrounded by people with anger isues, Causes you to have anger issues.

Everyone has that one person in their life that drives them insane and makes them feel miserable, no matter what they do.